Typing, typing,typing away. People think I am busy because I look like I'm typing thoughtfully. If only they knew I have spent the last hour reading about Bonnie and Clyde, taking personality quizzes and trying to text people before my phone dies. I really meant to charge my phone on the way to work but alas, I completely forgot about it. LOL.

Shouldn't all chatspeak abbreviations be capitalized? When the hell did I stop capitalizing them? Odd...

I always wonder why I am drawn to emotionally challenging tv. I love law and order: SVU. A lot of people I meet say "I can't watch that shit...it's too messed up" etc. To me it's just fiction. This shit happens in real life and (I feel) there is rarely justice. At least on tv the rate of justice is higher so I can tolerate it.  Maybe that makes me really weird? I mean I know I'm weird but the thing is tv is supposed to be for entertainment. What does it say about me if I'm entertained by horrific crimes happening and the perpetrator getting justice in the end?

More shit to type! Yay! Need to “decompress” before starting actual work but I already spent enough time screwing around so I have to look busy. Ugh. It’s funny how practiced one can be at looking “busy enough.” A fine balance between not getting distracted and being way too slow in doing whatever task you’re supposedly doing. I think my favorite thing to do is pretending to fix errors. Just hit the delete key a couple times and write what you deleted.  

I like how this blog editor looks like a word doc. They probably did that on purpose. I feel like more clever people would have figured that out faster. I then makes me wonder if anyone really notices things like that or if I'm one of very few people who take the time to think about that.

i am really bored and don’t feel like working. Therefore I am typing to seem busy. This is probably not justified at all but I don’t care at the moment. I’m pretty excited for tonight. I like having a crush. It’s fun and brings me back to more carefree days. Swinging is fun for that reason. I get to have crushes/feel like I have a crush because of the potential that exists. Maybe I should post this. But where?

It’s weird how I always feel like I have stuff to say and then when I try putting it in words I get stuck. I wonder if it has to do with my anxiety. It probably does as most things in my life are affected by this. 

bleh, maybe i’m just a neurotic asshole! Yes, I believe that this is the case.

I should google “shit I type when trying to look busy at work.” Great idea for a blog. I might take the time to do it right now as this would be a great way to continue looking busy. Just googled and have no results. Lots of tips on how to procrastinate though.