i am really bored and don’t feel like working. Therefore I am typing to seem busy. This is probably not justified at all but I don’t care at the moment. I’m pretty excited for tonight. I like having a crush. It’s fun and brings me back to more carefree days. Swinging is fun for that reason. I get to have crushes/feel like I have a crush because of the potential that exists. Maybe I should post this. But where?

It’s weird how I always feel like I have stuff to say and then when I try putting it in words I get stuck. I wonder if it has to do with my anxiety. It probably does as most things in my life are affected by this. 

bleh, maybe i’m just a neurotic asshole! Yes, I believe that this is the case.

I should google “shit I type when trying to look busy at work.” Great idea for a blog. I might take the time to do it right now as this would be a great way to continue looking busy. Just googled and have no results. Lots of tips on how to procrastinate though.